Saturday, November 30, 2013
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
1, 2, 3, 4, I Declare Thumb War
How many times do you think you should ask someone to pick their stuff up? How many times before you pick it up yourself?
The answer is up to you.. only you know the reasons, the situation, the chances and your patience. And what worked before might not work again. Or you may be just ready to make a huge ass impact!!!
My kids.. god knows how much I love my babies. My very capable, awesome, creatively, wonderful.... wonderfully messy, sometimes irresponsible, careless children. (AND SOME THOUGHT THEY WERE PERFECT ANGELS!!) Lol
My kids are perfectly imperfect, just like me ..and i wouldn't change it for the world!!! LOVE YOU 2!
BUT, with all that love.. i must teach them about
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Exciting the Excited
Ahhhh. LOVE LOVE LOVE
Mind going a million miles.. full if grand ideas. Desires pouring out ...soooo excited I wanna cry!
I wanna dance and I wanna show the world! INSPIRE others to open up their MIND BODY SOUL spirit.
I wanna read a million books, get lost in an island of fantasy, learn the ideas of the greats and write my own story..stories!!!! (That counts as 2 right?)
Ok ... read- experience
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Write my own
I want to mother.. a natural thing for me...
Kids and animals.. guide with love, encourage them to not limit their dreams and passions!
Plants and greenery.. i can sit for hours talking to the plants....giving off my loving energy!
(Don't be so quick to judge.. there are studies of growth in plants in a household full of loving talk, hugs, giggles, playful caring vs a house full of arguing, tension, yelling, screaming, fighting. Which house do u think the plants thrived longer in?)
I want to connect but not lose myself like I often do, when I listen to those voices in my head that say Im unworthy, or stupid because I upset someone. I KNOW I AM NONE OF THOSE AND LEARNING THOSE WORDS WERE POINTLESS.. i shall ask why when i hear people speak them!!!
Write about vocabulary ..and why or why not to keep expanding. Vent my confusion with the paradox of this feat.. and since neither can be prevented on global level..or can it.. haha limitless. Well, individual choice it what everything boils down too.
There is no thought of the world, idea, view, words to communicate.. without the self first. If you never expanded... if you didnt know you.. oh my goodness
I keep picturing a baby watching the world..with eyes wide open! A mind at ease, in a sense of no vocabulary, no words for that voice in their brain to vocalize a thought..
But what do u teach? The brain wants to know, do more, explore more.. naturally, so it will pick something up. Environment can be limited for young but how does one start an enlightened adventure for them.. can I even say that? Lol I just did but enlightenment is of self.. awareness.. gzzz how do i word that? I can not know it for them.. they will know it for themselves and dig further with their own questions..own quest.
Aww then my heart aches.. for those little children who grow up only knowing limits or an angry home or violence and hate or too busy parents... too busy to talk about love and freedom of choice and respect but NOT losing your voice..or your right to learn from experience and form your own opinion!!!
...I used to think that not being able to remember much of my childhood past was a problem throughout the yrs.. (I was taught that) .. but now I'm thankful. I NO LONGER LIVE THERE INSIDE..THAT IS WHY IT LEAVES ME. I AM HERE IN THE PRESENT shaping my future. Even as I write.. I know I'm choosing this ..even now.. now..haha.
I also know past still flares up quite often, and disconnecting the emotions as I view those experiences, is getting easier.
I think about when my son had therapy.. (awesomely nice ladies!!!! Thankyou) :-)
Umm yeah.. haha drifted on them a bit
But .. therapy.. there was this time when they were focused on him learning emotions.. expressing them, labeling them, recognizing it in others, etc. Amongst all that, I hoped I could help him see that our job is not to always guess what someone is feeling. Assuming someones emotions is not always a good thing, and asking gives that person a chance to clarify or recognize their own.
(haha "always, never". Those words are losing their edge. Time to redefine them into my meaning)
...(gzzz and suddenly "being a leader" takes on another meaning)
Sooo my head hurts.. and I really want to create a new project to change things up for my kids. ENCOURAGE GROWTH OF UPLIFTING AND ...dare i say it.. POSITIVE VOCABULARY, SO MAYBE THAT VOICE IN THEIR HEAD CAN BEGIN TO USE THOSE WORDS INSTEAD OF THOSE ...UMM errr negative words.
Gzz i need to come to terms with those words. Still trying to reframe their meaning in my own sense.
See good/bad, right/wrong, positive/negative... Inside i see them as labels to simplify or generalize most things that are just self preferences of LIKING OR DISLIKING something. Unfortunately, I can't help but notice how people get so hell bent(upset) of the idea of what they believe is good/bad etc, etc.
It's choice.. individual choice! Omy.. another moment. A rush of Buddha, Thich nhat, Jesus, Deepak..(and Oprah.. lol yes you have been more in focus with this 21 day Meditation Challenge!)
And, Everyone who mentions PEACE. The possibility is there.. but the idea of it has to change. With freewill there is choice for everything. No one can control anyone.. ONLY YOU CONTROL YOURSELF! <----I have often spoke of this.... but now... "peace must start within for any chance of world peace", absolutely makes sense!
FIND PEACE INSIDE ..TIME FOR SELF IS NOT SELFISH. ITS NECESSARY
LOL and I'm back where I started..
Now i want to quote that one .... umm through all our travels.. we shall come back to the beginning seeing it for the first time.
FLOW.. NOTICE AND GO.. TO LET GO ..DON'T JUDGE .. Listen and go..
Learning to flow is essential in the concept of peace.. meditation.. and my mind just flooded with a million thoughts..
FLOW ..
Ohhh i want to play with those thoughts, but my head feels like its going to explode!!! AND I tell my mind to quiet.. but, "hurt so bad that it feels so good"..haha, keeps playing.
What do i want?
STOP
Come join me in DAY 3 of the CHOPRACENTERMEDITATION.com
XoxoLadykoxoX
Mmm a song chimed in.. Dance? Dance first. ;-)
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
OF THE MOMENT
I press my cheek to her cheek.. the best my face will reach from behind her as she giggles in my lap.
"No, no nonono.." she repeats in protest as i type these words one handedly on the cell phone.. (i told her i was writing about our very moment)
There is no way to keep up with our moments ..well verbal writing. She has already moved onward, pounced to get her Pricess Bell bank. She is well in the process of showing me all the change she has filled her with.. my change! But my heart has no desire for such material clangor.. no... no...
No my smile grows watching her play.. and practice her newly perfected skill of counting.
I watch..glancing screen to her.. linger longer on her. My eyes start to fill with exceeding joy, in the form of warm wet beads of shimmery liquid. It seems my heart couldn't contain the massive surge of ... Loveeeee
She is hugging me
Sorry had to embrace that one fully. ;-)
I have 5 mins to finish writing. She wants to get on and watch something on youtube while I meditate for 30mins. We have some clothing folding and letter practice to do after our break.
I like to give my kids a break after school, that is if they can continue to shift with ease. Although, I admit, this one is more for me as the headache just won't ease off. I think I may of over done it with the 2 & 1/2 MILE jog to therapy in this wintery weather! Yes, it is flurrying, but I couldn't resist the challenge. I'm too stubborn for my own good! Hahahaha
Thankyou Frank 'giggle' Eagle... haha (still think giggle would of been just as awesome!) THANKYOU for the ride the way back.. the temp did drop quite a bit. Your act of pure kindness helps strengthen my belief in the love&compassion of mankind!!! You have made a friend and are
Okok time is way up.. my 5 yr old is getting better with that time.
Now she has us both cracking up with this weird app take records and changes your voice.
Ahh and my son comes in ..with sour burps.. deadly! Lol tata
XoxoLadyk
COME MEDITATE WITH ME.. AND Million more!
QUIET YOUR MIND AND LET YOUR INNER SPIRIT TAKE THE LEAD. Then answer the private journal questions and uncover your inner passions!
Xoxo
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
DEAR ONYX, I LOVE YOU... GOODBYE
I was going to do a beautiful design in his honor, but it seems my facebook got the bulk of my emotional release. I just want to post so he can watch my blog.. and haunt those who have ill intent! BEWARE!!!! XOXOLADYKOXOX
Sunday, November 3, 2013
IF YOU HAD ONE WISH...
IF YOU HAD ONE WISH...
Dance.. I want to dance all the time! Please put a radio station tuner in my brain so I can have music playing all the in the background.. dance to the beat of my own drum.... lol or whatever song I tune into. Volume would be on one side of my cheek or neck or ear... stations tuned by the other side.
Haha this started while I was doing an online test to finding my passion.
The more I wrote about all the awesome stuff in life, the more my mind kept adding the creativity inside. Wow I really am blessed cuz if find life a blast if im doing nothing or everything.. messy or structured.. over here over there... so asking what I love to do or what takes me away from the notice of time... name it, I bet if you showed me the ropes or gave access to reading up on it.. id be great and enjoy anything!
Errr sooooo what do I reeeeeally want to do? Gzz alot.. and I might have to start with what I don't want to do. I know they say stay at the positive wording.. like "state it as 'I want to be happy and carefree' vs 'I don't want to be stressed' "...but seriously I need to work on clearly identifying what bothers me cuz when you are internally happy for no reason .. it's hard to hold on to any issues. Or maybe it's that I don't stay in that mind frame for I just begin to go again and do what needs to be done.. at my pace. Hmmm or maybe its just how I feel at the moment.. clarity will come.
Anyways my mind keeps playing this song and when I read that question.. "IF YOU HAD ONE WISH... ", I scanned my brain and saw only music and wanted to sway.. so I expressed my passion for dance again and when I have my ear phones on as I jog or walk or where-ever doing whatever.. music in the background just makes it all extra exciting!!!
Ok now all I want to do is ..1.share the song or vid (I will find a way if I really want it!) 2. Watch it ..3. Play it loud and get lost in it. Where's my pole.. ;-) oh yeah getting better.. maybe share some pics of new tricks.. Pole championship I'm on my way!
XOxoLADYKxoXO
The quiz
http://www.theonequestion.com/test/
Others I recommend for Finding your passion!
http://liveyourlegend.net/
free guides, 2 courses to find passion and connect with anyone!
(Scott helped me start my blog.. his words are very encouraging! Or maybe it's cuz he is super cute.. so is his wife ;-) )
http://liveboldandbloom.com/ Mrs Barrie Davenport.. her book The 52 weeks life passion project...awesome!
Come join the 21 day meditation! FREEEEE and we can connect as one!
Saturday, November 2, 2013
BABY, YOU HAD ME AT... BITCH
Just one on the many books I'm reading.. this one comes from the thirst to understand the darker side of me.. the passionately seductive side with a twist.
Blah, blah, blah... Let's get it on! LADIES put you gloves on.. time to get messy! Men just stand there and look pretty, we'll let you know when we're ready!
XoxoLadyKoxoX
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WHY MEN LOVE BITCHES~~~~~^~~v~~{@
Introduction
Why Men Love Bitches is a relationship guide for women who are “too nice.” The word bitch in the title does not take itself too seriously—I’m using the word in a tongue-in-cheek way representative of the humorous tone of this book.
The title and the content address what many women think, but don’t say. Every woman has felt embarrassed by appearing too needy with a man. Every woman has had a man pursue her, only to lose interest the minute she gave in. Every woman knows what it feels like to be taken for granted. These problems are common to most women,married and single alike.
So why do men love bitches? An important distinction should be made between the pejorative way the word is usually used, and the way it is used here. Certainly, I’m not recommending that a woman have an abrasive disposition. The bitch I’m talking about is not the “bitch on wheels” or the mean-spirited character that Joan Collins played on Dynasty. Nor is it the classic “office bitch” who is hated by everyone at work.
The woman I’m describing is kind yet strong. She has a strength that is ever so subtle. She doesn’t give up her life,and she won’t chase a man. She won’t let a man think he has a 100 percent “hold” on her. And she’ll stand up for herself when he steps over the line.
She knows what she wants but won’t compromise herself to get it. But she’s feminine, like a “Steel Magnolia”—flowery on the outside and steel on the inside. She uses this very femininity to her own advantage. It isn’t that she takes undue advantage of men, because she plays fair. She has one thing the nice girl doesn’t: a presence of mind because she isn’t swept away by a romantic fantasy. This presence of mind enables her to wield her power when it is necessary.
In addition, she has the ability to remain cool under pressure. Whereas a woman who is “too nice” gives and gives until she is depleted, the woman with presence of mind knows when to pull back.
Among the hundreds of interviews I conducted with men for the book,over 90 percent laughed and agreed with the title within the first thirty seconds. Some men chuckled as though their best-kept secret had just been revealed. “Men need a mental challenge,” they said. Time and time again, this was the recurrent theme.
The men I interviewed all phrased it slightly differently, but the message didn’t change. “Men like it when a woman has a bit of an edge to her,” they said. Two things became clear across the board: First, they would regularly use the phrase mental challenge to describe a woman who didn’t appear needy. And second, the word bitch was synonymous with their concept of mental challenge. And this characteristic,above all,they found attractive.
When I used the phrase mental challenge with men, it was immediately clear to them the quality I meant. On the other hand,when I interviewed hundreds of women, rarely did they understand the same phrase. They often related the phrase to intelligence, rather than to neediness. It wasn’t just that my hunch was confirmed by these interviews; they also strengthened my sense of purpose. I thought that anything this obvious to men should not be kept a secret from women.
This book addresses the very issues that men won’t. He won’t say,“Look,don’t be a doormat,” “Don’t always say yes,” “Don’t revolve your whole world around me.” This book is necessary because these are things a man will not spell out for his partner. In the chapters that follow, you’ll find one message coming through loud and clear: Success in love isn’t about looks;it’s about attitude. The media would have us believe differently. A teenage girl picks up a magazine and reads: “Get that boy’s attention” with an item of clothing, or a certain look. “This nail color or lipstick will wow him,” the magazine assures her. And what does the girl learn? How to obsess over someone else’s approval.
Then there is the issue of how the media treats aging. The teenage woman evolves into a twenty-something woman with confidence, and the media bombards her with negative images of aging. The message here is: Two wrinkles and a stretch mark, and she’s “marked down” like last season’s merchandise that’s sold at half price. And what does she learn?How to obsess over someone else’s disapproval.
So what’s the message of this book? It’s that a bit of irreverence is necessary to have any self-esteem at all. Not irreverence for people, but rather, for what other people think. The bitch is an empowered woman who derives tremendous strength from the ability to be an independent thinker,particularly in a world that still teaches women how to be self-abnegating. This woman doesn’t live someone else’s standards,only her own. This is the woman who plays by her own rules, who has a feeling of confidence, freedom,and empowerment. And it’s this feeling that I hope women will glean from reading this book.
The woman who has a positive experience with men possesses the ever-so-subtle qualities I discuss in this book: a sense of humor and an aura that conveys, “I’m driving the train here. I’ll tell you where we get on and where we get off.” This woman has that presence of mind to do what is in her best interest and an attitude that says she doesn’t need to be there. She is there by choice.
The bitchy women who are so loved by men give off a devil-may-care quality and, yes, have that “edge.” This is that same edge, coincidentally,that men say they find so magnetic. The difference is this woman isn’t looking for it outside herself;it is a special quality she carries within.
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(Due to the fact that my laptop has crashed, I'm stuck with my cell for writing and the Html editor is non compliant.. (lil shit) uhhg! Sooo with neatness.. my hands are tied (so to speak ;-) ) Donations anyone?) Lol
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