~~~ JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY~~~

ME: Hey does ur lil one know how to read food and ingredient labels? I think im going to start it with my kids! We may start calorie counting x exercise burn cal.

HIM: She likes to read 'em sometimes..likes reading the forecast more
HIM: My lil one is also really into the legos I got her for x-mas

ME: Lol i mean read and understand what it means.. hmm. I just want my kids to be more self sufficient so the can make wiser choices, one that are intune to what they feel is good for them and those around. Venture out with ideas and connect and inspire as they be inspired! When they hang with kids.. i want them to be able to help others &sway focus on growth of ideas and projects instead of drugs or disobeying/lawbreaking. Laugh.. give a warm hug with words. Be confident so fear wont hold them back when people question their creativity or try to bring them down. I want for them to be able to share wisdom and love ppl even when they moody.. go out of their way sometimes to bring a smile.. and say u know.. you are awesome even if u think u are less, because we all play an important role in this world in ways we cant even begin to count and all i need for you to know is im glad to know you... even its all said with just a hug on a nucky day! Xoxo lovethemanyways

HIM: Absolutely love this!!!

ME: Do u ever wonder how much of what you do will help them achieve.. that big glob of gooey happiness? I do, often.

HIM: Yep

ME: Legos ...love making castles! D gets crazy creative with legos. Tt once made a tower that reached my ceiling in the kitchen out of videotapes. I have pics... the happiness i feel as i reflect radiates so bright it burns holes in the film script of my mind.. leaving me excited to encourage more learning & exploring.
We are talking about how much a male cat having kittens is worth! And  what came first chicken egg? Tt is tracing her numbers. We made a deal ....some writing practice then she gets to pick a musicvideo to dance to, practice & etc. Then reading!

I recall a question from a teacher at school during a meeting.. "what do you want for Damian 5yrs from now?"

I started with how it is hard to think that far ahead, but with a brief pause ... HAPPY!
What they do, feel, accomplish, etc is theirs to define, but I know happy is a place where magic lives and sparks of life fly.. and everything feels like it will be alright no matter what happens!! HAPPY
Xoxoladyk

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~~~~~~ JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY~~~~~~

..makes me think of a song.. Leona Lewis might be able to help me out!! Where u at girl? ;-)
LEONA LEWIS - HAPPY


"Happy"

[Verse 1:]
Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't you take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't you love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I can't stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

[Chorus:]
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

[Verse 2:]
Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
But all these days, they feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me out of here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
And watch this life pass me by, pass me by

[Chorus:]
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

[Bridge:]
So any turns that I can't see,
like I'm a stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

[Chorus:]
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

[Outro:]
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

Blessings in Meows

They wouldn't let me sort paperwork, but after some silly play, they were more than happy to meditate with me! #Love #Iamblessed #connected #one

(Now only if i could get them to stop seeing toilet time as lap petting time lol! but then again.. i might miss it ;-) #unconditionallove ) <3

MEOW/bark(although she knows not a difference.. so rrrreow as i hear her say)
XOXOK

Write me a love Poem

Take a slow deep breath and close your eyes.. like that breath is connected to a line that pulls blinds sealing your mind in stillness

When you breathe out be sure to push out any emotions at play so u can feel the space inside your being ..

Breathe calmness

Breathe again and see the darkness begin to waver gently, silently
Like silky water gliding with a blow from your breath

Deep breath ..stillness again

Notice a leaf falling and landing on the surface, creating tiny rolling ripples outward
Smile in awe as more come to say hello and put on a show
Ebb flow, dance go

Let your head roll as you dance to the blissful tune that only your heart can feel as echoes from each leaf hitting.. gradually take over

See yourself at the pond enjoying your creative play
Expand your view to take in a bigger view..
Trees, flowers, plants a many surround you in your quiet place of sweet surrender
Wrapping you in warm energy of love
Feeding
Renewing
Soothing

This is where you will find me
You are welcome to join
If you can find your way
Past yourself

If we can find a way
Past ourselves

Onelove

Now breathe

Instigate a Mind Fuck

Instigation
I like that word. LOVE the ideas my mind plays with when pondering that word.
Love words ..creating images.. changing them, shaping them, molding.
Love not understanding til you do.
Love being instigated ...(is that proper use? Lol expand in it anyway)

Lately it has occurred to me that ...I can choose to see ecstasy in words.. feel ecstasy with words. Stories can be wonderful or tormenting or wonderfully tormenting ....choose. The macro can excite the fascination of your own bewilderment; yet the micro focus reveals it is mere verbal cognition,  that stimulates a reaction. Words you give the meaning.
Be proactive. Love it. Get enthused. Be amused. Choose.

Soon you stop choosing and... well.. you may be in love with words... find yourself sexually stimulated with people who can engage your mind so much that you love claiming ignorance when you listen to them speak... write.. sing. They offer a gift for you to unwrap when your inquisitive self won't stop feeding. Their words mentally bitch slap you, demanding your attention; turning you on in every which way... you almost beg for more (consciously and unconsciously).
Heart racing
Body sweaty
mind-full
Breathless

...built up heavy

Pleeeeease continune, I'm not finished
Tell me again
The idea hasn't peaked
Throw in volume, rhythm, colors, tone
Paint me a picture
Throw me in overload
Ecstasy
Bliss

Best thing about this deeper awareness, is that YOU create it all! Not them.
Change your mind and change it again! Think, create, expand.... instigate!
Play nice
.....or not. ;-)

Cheers! Xmas! Love love!
xoxoladyk

P.s. Dance even if no one else can hear your tune... it's liberating!!

Go against the grain. Proof you never know what to expect.

Proof that going against the grain can still be fruitful!!!

Real application filled out by an elderly and was hired for his hilarity!

(Neighbor printed it out for me to remind me to keep pushing forward and enjoy every moment! Never really know what may come out of it!)

Thankyou

LOVE LOVE LOVE

Xoxok

Free Audiobook / ebook "AS A MAN THINKETH" - James Allen

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My heart rejoices as in with all the focused effort.. i shall not be of greater purpose than that of mother teaching her child the wisdom of how to master himself...create his life... bow to his own struggle and learn from himself in grace and peace and forgiving love that spouts from his own cultivated thoughts. We are one step further.. as he willingly joined me, listening to the audiobook "AS A MAN THINKETH" James allen

So the story begins..

My mind won't sit still!
I run through so many to-dos, past events, probably, faces of emotion without names, what if and where do I begin?! Many sequences replaying while desperately trying to check any missing details as frames freeze in minds eye point of view. My heart pulsates the warm blood through my veins faster.. faster! I question if it's anger or a misinterpreted heat advancement of pure adrenaline as my soul longs to rest with gentle forward movements, but the more my mind flutters the more everything awakens to the reality of being alive.

How does one control this power?

I have watched myself flip-flop in loving torment as the scales of balance never seem quite accurate.

Struggle doesn't seem quite the fit of this aware understanding. Flowing seems too passive in any approach.

And then, the foggy gray misty sky, somehow convinces self to soothe in safety of a suppressing barrier. Subdued momentarily, this lavishing chaos.

She smiles.

The rain begins to pour...  inside her head.

XoxoLadyk